constructive self-criticism post show. Winchester.

PROBABILITY PRAXIS 20 of 28
Winchester, UK 15.09
Waning Gibbous

(notes from Kate)

Someone we spoke to in Copenhagen gave us the idea that we should begin with a more focused energy, perhaps by asking everyone to clap at the same time. He suggested that this would allow us to pull everyone in, make everyone feel a part of the ritual, without having to say anything, and to give it more solemnity. We still havent tried that yet, but we are coming around to the idea. I suppose this series is about giving every idea a chance, to see how it will function.

We are doing better at getting the circle to come around and focusing together as a duo to come together but we both need to rehearse our vocal cues. we also feel that we need to refocus our spoken parts. i for one need to slow down when I am speaking and i would like to add something about the idea of “critical”, I want to communicate that I dont believe that simply by shouting out our intentions that we can make them real. But I do believe that by being in the same place together, forming a union together, in that space, even just touching bodies, even with our hands, we can make change.

Each time we perform this spoken part, I feel like it needs to be renewed and refreshed, to fit the particular context in which we are working. This is no doubt a challenge, especially when we have just a few hours pre show to soak in where we are. The centering that we have been doing, the mapping around our area, is helping me to feel more grounded and connected to our particular location. I think this is invaluable.

The “leave” and “remain” binary that Adrienne suggested I found both particularly triggering and powerful for people here, the white blindfolds as well. I still worry that the depart the octagon can approach clowning and I worry about this.

After the show we have a long talk about how important it is to us to set a beautiful stage and how we want to make more attention to the layout and design of the stage. In our dreams we make the altar and the technics the same thing — like a kind of transformation of the technological into the magical, or rather, posing them as possibility of one and same. But in order to do this I feel strongly that we need to have hardcases and a sturdy structure to hide the technical things from getting thrown on the ground.

I was happy to feel that many people were really moved by the show and that they went deep with us. At times I worried that there was shyness from audience members about body contact and involvement, but i realized from the verbal feedback afterwards that they were really moved. Even one conversation like this, even just one, makes me feel like we are continuing in productive art that is making change.

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